Monday, May 18, 2009

Back to Work

I went back to work today. I had 11 glorious weeks off. Time spent with Stanford, Maggie and lots of extended family. I was able to re coop from a hard and difficult delivery. I was able to have success at breastfeeding. I was able to nap and read and go for walks and bike rides. I was able to figure out ways to calm a crying baby.

Motherhood has been quite an adjustment for me. I kept thinking that after a difficult pregnancy things would be great. And while it's not been terrible, it's not been easy either. The constant spitting up, crying, and poopy diapers can sometimes cause me to want to pull my hair out. But the smiles and coos, cuddles and soft cheeks to kiss make up for those difficult times.

And today I had to do the most difficult thing of all and walk out my front door with purse, pump, lunch and water in tow and kiss my husband and sweet little girl goodbye. I was so nervous about this day. Not quite sure what to expect. It was not what I wanted and yet it was ok.

My day back at work could not have gone better. Stanford made me a smoothie for breakfast. I got the most perfect parking spot. There were welcome back signs all over my office, playroom and Peds unit. I got filled in on all that has happened in the last few months. I got to catch up on all the lives of my friends and co-workers. And the best part: the day went by quickly. And when I came home there was my husband and little girl waiting to greet me. Dinner was cooking & the table set. I feel blessed.

I think I just might be able to handle this.

10 comments:

  1. Sara, I am SO GLAD it was a good day. I thought about you all day long and was SO HAPPY to get your text mid day that things were going as you wanted and needed them to.

    I sure love you.

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  2. Wow. That is great that Stanford is being so helpful and supportive. I know this isn't ideal, but I am sure you are grateful that you had a job to go back to. I am glad that you had such a great day.

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  3. How wonderful that Maggie still gets to spend the day with her daddy instead of at daycare. That is a blessing too. I'm glad that your first day back went so smoothly. I'm sure not every day will go that well, but you can handle it. You're tough. I'm glad you enjoyed your maternity leave too. Good luck settling into your new routine!

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  4. I'm glad that things went so well for you!

    Wow Standford had the baby cooing AND dinner ready?!? Good Job!

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  5. i thought about you all day too, (actually the whole week before) when i told tom i was sad you had to go back to work he said "at least she has the best babysitter for her baby that she could have", which is very true!

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  6. I really just feel so happy and blessed myself that things went so well today for you. That prayers were answered. I feel just so happy day #1 went good. I sure do love you. Way to go Stanford on even having dinner cooking when you got home too. I love you guys!

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  7. I'm so happy it went better then you thought. My heart aches for you even though things are okay and will be. Please call me when you have the days off.

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  8. I am so happy your first day back went so well! I know this is not an easy thing for you, but I know you can do it for the time being! You are lucky to have a man you can trust to get the things done that you would be doing if you were home. Good luck with the rest of the adventure!

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  9. I'm so glad your first day back at work was positive in almost all ways! I felt the same way (sad) when leaving Nathan (V)at age 23 months to go and substitute teach for my husband. I cried after I dropped him off. But I pulled it together to teach.

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  10. You go girl! So happy that it went good! What a good hubbie you have...I certainly don't have a cooing baby, the table set, and dinner bubblin' when brad gets home! :) Maybe he can send me some tips!

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