Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Awkwardness

I've had plenty of awkward moments lately to last a lifetime. I'm at the point now where I'm beginning to laugh at it all because it's too comical. And yet the stressfulness I'm experiencing because of these awkward moments is just too real and painful at times. I just got home from a child life conference where I spent last Thursday thru Sunday in San Diego with my co-worker and family. I knew it was going to be awkward before I left and yet, too me, it was too late to back out of it. Well let me tell ya, it was one crazy weekend. I will never do that again. But it's over and I'm back to work and now dealing with awkward situations with my co-worker. To the point where I'm going to start looking for another job. That doesn't mean I'm going to do anything about it yet, it just means that I'm going to start the process. I've been at this job for a little less than a year, but in the child life field for 5. I'm at the bottom of the todem pole here and I don't like it. It's hard going from a job where it doesn't matter if you have 18 years of experience or 3 months, you're treated with the same respect and given the same opportunities. Here I feel as if I'm getting dumped on and treated unprofessionally and I'm tired of it. At least I'm getting stronger at standing up for myself and voicing my opinions. That's a difficult thing for me to do. I'm more passive and try to keep peace. But there are times when you've just got to suck it up and stand your ground. I'm learning ever so slowly. And my husband has been so good at helping me.

Here are some pictures of my "miller" friends who I miss ever so much. Being around them at the child life conference was wonderful. I had forgotten how great it was to work with them.

Part of the gang at Hard Rock Cafe. What a fun night we had of laughing and telling stories. Boy do I love these girls.


Stacy and Remi who happened to have blurry faces in the photo above.


Rita (our best boss ever) and Debi - her sidekick ;)


Carrie (who is constantly behind the camera) and Araceli


Saturday night - Allison, Araceli, Judy, me, Trisha & Alicia. Oh and don't forget Ryan, Trisha's husband who's taking the picture! We went to Rockbottom Brewery at the Gaslamp district and ended up getting seated right under the band. We could barely talk to each other. It was pretty comical. We parked in a structure where you exit down what felt like a spiral staircase, only we were driving down it in a mini van. As soon as I looked over I saw a large pillar awfully close and Judy's car scraps right along it. Judy's reaction is "Oh well, I'm getting a new car!" We could barely contain our laughter at how crazy this "exit" was designed. What a fun night.

8 comments:

  1. Love the pics! Isn't the Miller crew the best ever...unfortunately nothing will ever come close or compare to those gals:) Miss you. Can't wait to catch up one of these days soon!!!

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  2. I so can't even believe all the crazy stuff that happened to you this last weekend... and I bet I don't even know half of it. I am sorry they treat you so bad at work. I love your stinkin' guts! I hope I talk to you soon.

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  3. It was great seeing you at the conference. I have not been able to sit and finish my previous post let alone write about the conference and here you are done with yours. I'm sorry you have been going trough some awkwardness lately but I know you are a srong person and everything will get better for you soon.
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  4. It was so fun to see you if only for a couple of hours. I'm so sorry things suck at work. Hopefully they'll get better soon or you'll find something much better.

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  5. I think I understand a little bit. With Rec Therapy I have to work really hard to make people understand what I do and why it's so important. I have worked at 2 facilities, one where they really valued me and treated me accordingly. We also had an awesome team of 4 therapists there. Then I went to a facility where every day was a struggle and very few people treated me with the professional respect I expected. I would never go back there. I only ended up staying about 6 months. Good luck finding something great! Looks like amidst all the awkwardness you squeezed in some good times this last weekend. :)

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  6. I'm so jealous you got to go to conference! :)
    So much fun.

    I agree with Kandra...no job will ever compare to how great we had it with millie.

    Keep standing your ground though...you deserve respect because you are AMAZING!

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  7. Sorry that you are having such a hard time at work!! No fun!

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  8. Well, you already know exactly how I feel about what happened between you and your co-worker. She was totally out of line. But, I did love seeing all the pictures with your old co-workers. They were a good bunch of ladies you use to work with. It is sad the difference a staff can make. I am glad you did get to have fun with them while you were in San Diego.

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