Awkwardness

I've had plenty of awkward moments lately to last a lifetime. I'm at the point now where I'm beginning to laugh at it all because it's too comical. And yet the stressfulness I'm experiencing because of these awkward moments is just too real and painful at times. I just got home from a child life conference where I spent last Thursday thru Sunday in San Diego with my co-worker and family. I knew it was going to be awkward before I left and yet, too me, it was too late to back out of it. Well let me tell ya, it was one crazy weekend. I will never do that again. But it's over and I'm back to work and now dealing with awkward situations with my co-worker. To the point where I'm going to start looking for another job. That doesn't mean I'm going to do anything about it yet, it just means that I'm going to start the process. I've been at this job for a little less than a year, but in the child life field for 5. I'm at the bottom of the todem pole here and I don't like it. It's hard going from a job where it doesn't matter if you have 18 years of experience or 3 months, you're treated with the same respect and given the same opportunities. Here I feel as if I'm getting dumped on and treated unprofessionally and I'm tired of it. At least I'm getting stronger at standing up for myself and voicing my opinions. That's a difficult thing for me to do. I'm more passive and try to keep peace. But there are times when you've just got to suck it up and stand your ground. I'm learning ever so slowly. And my husband has been so good at helping me.

Here are some pictures of my "miller" friends who I miss ever so much. Being around them at the child life conference was wonderful. I had forgotten how great it was to work with them.

Part of the gang at Hard Rock Cafe. What a fun night we had of laughing and telling stories. Boy do I love these girls.


Stacy and Remi who happened to have blurry faces in the photo above.


Rita (our best boss ever) and Debi - her sidekick ;)


Carrie (who is constantly behind the camera) and Araceli


Saturday night - Allison, Araceli, Judy, me, Trisha & Alicia. Oh and don't forget Ryan, Trisha's husband who's taking the picture! We went to Rockbottom Brewery at the Gaslamp district and ended up getting seated right under the band. We could barely talk to each other. It was pretty comical. We parked in a structure where you exit down what felt like a spiral staircase, only we were driving down it in a mini van. As soon as I looked over I saw a large pillar awfully close and Judy's car scraps right along it. Judy's reaction is "Oh well, I'm getting a new car!" We could barely contain our laughter at how crazy this "exit" was designed. What a fun night.